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First of all, I know I said I wasn’t blogging for the month of March because of our busy schedule but it appears as though we took off most of April as well…oops!
Well, it has been 3 months and 8 days since we had to kiss our Lil Louis goodnight for his last time. I will never forget that night and my sweet little Louis love. I don’t think I will ever be able to move on from him, but I am TRYING to move forward. I see my little guy’s handsome face all day/everyday as I have his photo with me all of the time. I have his photos and urn in a special place in our home.
So I wasn’t sure how Harmony or Fendi would handle things when all of this happened. Fendi wasn’t too into playing with Harmony. That was something that Louis did all day/everyday. He and Harmony were the BEST of friends.
To my surprise it has been so amazing to see how Harmony and Fendi’s relationship has developed! They love playing and chasing each other and they even snuggle now, which again was Harmony and Louis’ thing and Fendi never got too close (I think she was afraid of getting her hair pulled)! Now they are practically glued together at the hip!
So life is still tough without our handsome little bug. I am trying my best to move forward, but I know that I’ll never move on.
So I think I’m almost used to crying all the time and I can feel when it’s coming on. Although I try to hold it in, sometimes I just cannot help it. I did not know that it would ever be this hard to loose my sweet little guy. I miss him so much. I guess it doesn’t help that my husband and daughter have been on vacation for the last 7 days. They went home to CA and I know they are loving it. I just wish I could be with them. Fendi has been keeping me really good company! She even kisses my tears away when I cry…she has the sweetest motherly instinct about her. Poor Fendi, I wonder how all of this ever processed for her loosing her son. Anyway…here’s the life of a tear.
And here is Fendi kissing my tears away.
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So I’m hibernating for a little bit…The definition of March Madness has a whole new meaning! This month is jam pack with a ton of traveling in a short period of time! Therefore, if I get a moment I’ll post a new blog but as of now we are crazy busy in the Gorton household!
Gosh…our little girl is such a miracle! Jeff and I look at her every single day in pure amazement of how big she is getting and how smart she is too! She’s totally into Curious George right now. Whenever she wants to watch an episode or just dance to the opening music, she just points to the tv with one hand, puts the other hand on top of her head and says “Ahhhh Ahhhh Ahhhh”!!! From time to time I’ll catch her playing with her cow magnet saying “mooooooo” with her cute little lips all pushed out! Her little personality is developing so much and it just kills me! I love it! Every morning after breakfast and an episode or two of Curious George, she brings us Fendi’s harness and points to the door! She loves walking Fendi! Here she is with her Auntie Christie last weekend walking their pups together!
Also, while Auntie Christie & Bebe were in town for Presidents Day weekend Harmony got some new Skinnies at the GAP from her Bebe! She is one styling little girl!
Each day I am just amazed at this beautiful, amazing, talented, smart and incredible little miracle that God gave us!
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So, I went to pick up H today from school. Her teacher said…”Oh! We got her a little gift!” Last week they asked what happened when she missed school last minute a few weeks ago, so I told them about our sweet Louis. Being pet lovers, they both wanted to see photos of him! So today they gave Harmony a Louis look-a-like!
Wow! I was so impressed! What a sweet gift…just the thought alone was too sweet! They said Harmony carried her little pup around all day and when it was naptime…no crying, no fussing…just snuggling her pup and she was off to dreamland! Needless to say, I am so beyond impressed with her school teachers!
I must admit that I am super impressed with my husband’s recent fashion trends for Harmony!!! He’s put together some pretty hilarious outfits in the past but I feel like recently he’s been secretly reading the fashion pages or something! He’s even starting to figure out the whole headband thing!!
The casual hippie
Sunny Day Hippie
Comfy Cutie
Everyday we look at our little love in amazement of how quickly she is growing. I cannot believe that 16 months ago, we had this beautiful baby girl:
…and now she’s this big?
How did this happen? And is there a way to slow it down?
Some of Harmony’s favorite activities these days are:
Taking Fendi on walks!
Going on adventures in AZ with Daddy!
Riding her bike & talking on her cell phone at the same time!
And sleeping in her big girl bed for naps!
Don’t get me wrong…I loooove this stage in her life! She is able to communicate so well! She listens to directions! She helps clean up her toys! She loves reading her books! I just wish I could put life into slow motion for this stage!
Harmony has become quite the Daddy’s girl! I am obsessed with their adorable relationship! I feel they are going to have a relationship like I have with my Daddy…the best EVER!
That’s all for now…I just can’t believe my little girl is growing up so much!
So I’ve come to terms that there will always be good days and bad days without my baby boy around. Somedays I’m constantly thinking how silly and fun he was and then I think about how loving and tender he was with everyone, and I just miss him so much.
Today, we took Fendi for her first solo groom since Louis was born in 2006…she did great! The groomer is very sweet and gentle with her and I think she had a great/relaxing time!
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I know I’ve been blogging all sad stuff lately…I’m sorry that it has been that way. I just need to write down my feelings sometimes. Maybe I shouldn’t always post it, but then I still feel like these heavy feelings are still sitting on my chest.
So just when I start to see the light of day and I think all is going to be okay…something sneaks in and reminds me of how much I miss my sweet and precious little boy. Louis was my little shadow. So the littlest things that I do, I turn around and look for him to be right there at my feet and he’s not. He’s gone. Gone to heaven.
I miss the smell of his face. I miss his kisses behind the ear and all over my face. I miss his crazy rake after he goes potty outside. I miss his loud bark/warm greeting when I come home from work. I miss his bedtime snuggles. I miss him following me EVERYWHERE I go…yes, even the potty. I just miss him.
Louis, you are still my little guy. I miss you more than words can express. Mommy loves you so much, my little Lovebug!
This song is so special to me. It is my mom and my song. It has been on my heart so much since my little boy said goodnight for his final time one week ago, tonight.
My heart is still broken and I’m not sure how it will ever heal but I know that “we’ll be together somewhere out there, out where dreams come true”
“Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone’s thinking of me and loving me tonight
Somewhere out there someone’s saying a prayer
That we’ll find one another in that big somewhere out there
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we’re sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we’ll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true
And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we’re sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we’ll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true”
Growing with the Gorton's 